Being open about change

Wow.

It has been some time since  visited this  blog. I think prior to this one,  I mentioned how I wanted to write almost everyday….humpf…seems like I will be doing it once a month.  It’s just my procrastination coming out….

I’m blessed to have made it to another year. 2009. And just as I am thankful for each of my days and passing hours, minutes, seconds, and moments…I will treasure this as a blessing. I stayed indoors for New Years. It was great actually. I invited a close friend over and we cooked and watched movies with the kids.  It’s always a wierd moment when the world changes it’s numbers.

I had a pretty good 2008, so much to say that I was kind of sad to see it go, and that feeling lingered in me for awhile. Then when 2009 was in full swing, a series of negative things started happening to me and of course one would automatically suggest the year in whole would take a negative turn, but  I for one am an optimistic and embrace what 2009 has in store for me and my future. I’m loving it, nuturing it, and growing with it. I made no resolutions as I believe that I am already active in making things better for myself. It’s just that 2008 ran out too quick for me to accomplish everything.

So…the holidays ended up being great with family. There were no surprises or disappointments. Work was suprisingly non-stressful and I enjoyed really celebrating togetherness and being with the ones I hold dear to my heart.

FASHION! FASHION FASHION! I am so excited to start working more agressively on the Fashion Revolution and meeting the models and everyone who is part of the production. Every year I produce a fashion runway show here in Milwaukee and each year it gets bigger and bigger and inspires more people to really get out there and use their talents. This year we have approximately 27 models and 4 of them being male. We have 10 designers and approximately 3 of them are returning designers from 2008 so it will be so much fun to see how this unfolds! Our new website is up and running at http://www.thefashionrevolution.com. The change with this show is that we have upgraded to a certain degree. We carefully selected the best of the best and hope to convey that message nationally, and universally. Milwaukee has talent! Also, a new location, we will be at the Milwaukee Art Museum.

RELATIONSHIPS! ooohhh JUIC-SAY! Well, I have come to the conclusion, I just want to be single. I want to be alone and focus on my career CHANGE and also my kids. However, I don’t wish to be that way forever. But I am now in a committed relationship but also going through the necessary steps to dismantle that. I don’t want the responsibility of being someone’s woman. I have so many other things to do and frankly, the relationship I am in now, I’m not getting any benefits. And I’m tired. I do believe LOVE holds everything together, and I do love him, but the depth of our situation has become too much for me and I need to make a change to make myself happy…OR I will be that bitter woman which everyone hates….and I have no plans on hating myself. So…yeah…I want to say that I am happily single (soon)…but not looking.

MY JOB, GIG, PLANTATION….whatever you wanna call it! I finally shared with my boss about my need to go part time to pursue my enterprenuerial ventures. Ultimately in the next 1-2 years I want to open an upscale vintage clothing boutique in Milwaukee. So, to prepare for this, I am doing lots of research and trying to gain experience in retail. I have a few interviews at boutiques, so my objective is to work there and to just get a feel of what it is like to work in a retail clothing store. So, I am getting paid so much more at my current job, but I don’t mind taking a pay cut to pursue my passions and dreams. That just means I am going to have to be more frugal with my spending and maybe no vacations for me this year. —-However, I may be seen at all the wonderful summer festivals at my clothing booth selling items! I’m working on that now!

Let’s see….just yesterday I realized my home was burglarized and the thief ended up taking  jewelry and all my damn change out the penny jar. It’s so weird because I did not  notice anything until I woke up and ventured into my room from sleeping on the living room couch. I noticed all my wallets were thrown everywhere. ALL my purses were ransacked and rummaged through.  My jewelry boxes and cases were all busted up and that is when I noticed, I had been robbed. Such a vulnerable feeling. The feeling is so strong, that I still believe that I am in shock and don’t know how to handle it. I am not a person that freaks out so when I told everyone about it they looked at me like ” why are you so calm?”. I just don’t know. The items they took, I could care less about. Now if it was some of my vintage clothing…then I may have been really pissed off. But they took jewelry that I didn’t wear often and I just don’t care. As long as my family was safe that is all that matters. Now the thought of them coming back still lingers, but I am a strong believer in if things happen, they are supposed to happen. So, I just ask the Higher Being to protect me and keep me safe.

Oh yes… I am done with the book cover for my co-worker I was working on and here it is! I am so excited for him!

~ by mizzgg on January 7, 2009.